Nah I won’t spy on my neighbours, and I live in an apartment complex. Cameras make people even more paranoid from what I’ve seen, and I’m kinda glad that my country has strict rules on them so they’re not everywhere (yet).

I’m afraid that someone will break into my house. It’s a completely irrational fear but that knowledge has never helped me. I panic from each weird sound I hear when I’m alone while if someone else is in the house I don’t worry and just assume the sound comes from them. I barely have any expensive items so I’m mostly just scared of the possibility of a physical confrontation. I think I developed this fear from watching too many detective shows as a child.

Who knew that the cure for seasonal depression is going outside?

After years of struggling I finally found something that works for me and it’s basically just standing outside in front of the door for a few minutes in the morning. I didn’t know it could make such a difference. I don’t feel too uncomfortable because I can just go inside whenever I want and after doing it for a few weeks I’m kinda starting to enjoy it.

Just ate 1,5 bags of chips, am I going to die?

Luckily where I live is progressive enough that some guys will wear a dress to prove how comfortable they are in their masculinity

It was also kinda cool to see their whole demeanour change in a dress. Boys in dresses are cute

I used to pressure my guy friends into wearing my dresses and then I would nearly die of envy after seeing them in my dress.

Can’t wait till I’m muscular and manly so I can wear dresses again.

Buzz cut

Sometimes there are clinics for and by immigrants and bipoc that provide free or cheap hrt consultations and prescriptions. Maybe that’s an option for you as well? I don’t want to give false hope though, a lot of those clinics have long waiting lists and are volunteer based.

Being the only person in protective gear at a protest can sometimes lead to being singled out and beaten harder by the police. That doesn’t mean it’s a bad idea, just something to keep in mind.

::: spoiler spoiler That’s a lot you’re dealing with:(

I can only relate to the covid part as I’ve been sick for almost a year now. At the start I basically starved myself because I didn’t know how to ask anyone around me to help me with food and cooking and going to the store was often too much.

Now I’m doing better and can at least take care of myself again but honestly I wish I had learned to ask for help because those first months were so awful. I hope your situation gets better as well. :::

Yeah

I have friends in Gaza too, I know what it’s like. And I know Palestinians in my own country who have family that are being killed and they are obviously the most determined activists you’ll ever meet because it’s the only thing they can do to help their people. But yeah it’s rough. As I said, I cry all the time about it.

I thought I wanted to be a guy who wants to be a girl before I realised I was trans.

For me that was because I had difficulty thinking out of the binary. I like girly culture and I feel a strong connection of solidarity with women and I always felt like that meant that I wasn’t trans. I thought that being trans meant adopting all stereotypes of a gender and switching teams in terms of gender solidarity (very silly). I was also afraid that trans spaces wouldn’t accept a feminine trans guy like me and that people would say/find out that I wasn’t really trans.

This site made me realise that my gender is literally what I want it to be and that I do not need confirmation from other trans people to be trans (but even then it still helped that I did get that confirmation here).

I have no idea if your situation is similar, where you want to be a woman but still feel attached to some characteristics you associate with men. Either way it doesn’t matter because your gender identity is yours alone and you can have it be anything you want it to be :)

If your gender is girl who wants to be a guy then I think you could try transitioning to be a girl first and then again to be a guy. Maybe you just enjoy the journey of transitioning and want to do it again and again snd again

Everyone should transition at least once in their life, just to try

me rn

Be afraid, he/hims

These ideas sound solid

I cry so often nowadays and try to just let the emotions out when I’m alone so I can function ‘normally’ in public. Idk what is the best approach to deal with the depression and sadness. I just tell myself that being afraid and sad means that I’m human and it motivates me to not give up the fight.

I do think that we all deserve a distraction sometimes and taking a break from reading the news sometimes can actually help us gain strength to fight harder (depends on the person I suppose).

🥺 They’re so cute they make my inner voice high pitched and I don’t mind it. Hope tomorrow (today?) goes better.