(rant) I hate asking... I'm trying my best

EDIT: Thank you for all the support. Words really helped me, and I am going to make it. I had to edit this post, because I realize my ex would be able to identify me from it...and she has used social media against me in court before. I don't care if I get identified online...I just don't want my words to hurt my chances of getting full possession of my kids.

Love and solidarity.