HexaSnoot 1w ago • 100%
What drug laws?
Naturalist remedies are popular in China. So I figure fungus(LSD and shrooms) and weed could be among the first psychedelics that will be legally distributed. I have no idea how far in the future.
HexaSnoot 2w ago • 100%
And China has been proven right over the last 15 years about the absolute chaos western internet could bring to a country.
Like what? Are there some main examples you can immediately think of? Do you mean a bunch of conspiracies being passed off as real news?
HexaSnoot 2w ago • 100%
What dumbass chose the word "dual" for being loyal to only one country? I thought it'd mean loyalty to two countries at once.
HexaSnoot 2w ago • 100%
Damn. Now I have even more reason to root for Jewish people. Thank you for telling me all this.
HexaSnoot 2w ago • 100%
What exactly is dual loyalty?
HexaSnoot 2w ago • 100%
It's monstrous to attempt to separate people from the ethnicity and culture they belong to, all in the name of power. I'm not Jewish, but Western propaganda does that with me my ethnicity and my culture all because a group of wannabe rulers want to rule my people. And the US wants a war base out of supporting them. Americans think it's politically correct to try doing this with me. Just last night I came home, stewed, and cried after someone attempted to get along with me by doing that. I'm furious about it and I can't imagine how antizionist Jews are feeling.
HexaSnoot 2w ago • 100%
Zionism has an interest in making the rest of the world unsafe for Jews
How so? I'm reading the rest of the comments. Is there anything you want to add?
I think any race conspiracy gives power to Nazis and immediately puts Jewish people at more danger. Making both US news and Zionism antisemitic. That's all I've put together. I really should've asked this in a post long ago, I just feel embarrassed about not knowing.
HexaSnoot 2w ago • 100%
I thought this was from the story of the Golem.
HexaSnoot 2w ago • 100%
That's an idea. But I have to face the slavery version of the word master being said, or else I'll remain too sensitive. Idk how to turn that into a non-gross sounding mix.
HexaSnoot 2w ago • 66%
"Sifu" sounds SO much better. I like the word. I'll try and see Master Jang as "Korean Sifu Jang"
Martial arts movies would be fun. Last one I watched was Ip Man.
It felt fine to hear "Master Oogway" in the animation Kungfu Panda because he had a highly exaggerated sifu aesthetic and voice to him. He was undeniably a sifu.
The word is in entertainment a lot. Outside the context of slavery, it still triggers me. For example, I'm watching a show called Gyeongseong Creature, and characters keep saying "Master Jang." (A protagonist.) He's an ultra rich guy who owns a pawn shop. He's constantly acknowledged as if he's an authority figure. I don't have enough context about Korean culture to understand when and why people get the label "Master." It just sucks to hear. It would help if hearing "master" and observing severe sucking up didn't feel so visceral.
HexaSnoot 2w ago • 100%
Any sources saying why he landed in jail for posting on Instagram? I was an apolitical lib when I saw his Instagram video where he wouldn't open the door for Chinese cops and they came in anyways. All in Chinese so I had no idea why.
He made the Birds Nest Olympic stadium in Beijing so he'll be brought up forever. I was introduced to his work as a kid and people seem to always mention him and his work just to say "China bad." Everytime I try to listen to why it just sounds like grey unlistenable sludge. Partially because I don't know much about history in general so I don't know what the mentioned parts of Chinese history are about. My final reason to give up is because I know much/all of what I hear is probably whitewashed propaganda. If he indeed has good criticism, I don't trust Western media to not twist his words out of their original meaning.
If so, how so? I hope it doesn't because love how the song sounds. Tbh idk what Zionism even is. I just judge from news that a lot of them, maybe up to all of them, support Israel. Feel free to educate me.
Maybe it's common in China and I just didn't spot it.
HexaSnoot 2mo ago • 100%
Happy birthday Bailey! I patiently watched this photo load like it was printing from a fax machine. 
HexaSnoot 2mo ago • 100%
I didn't know people think it's funny. I thought it's viral because his voice is very impressive. It's also an earworm. I always saw it as a sad party song. Like the song I'm Blue(dabadee).
Edit: I just listened to it in full for the first time and read the lyrics. It's chilling poetry. You're completely right.
HexaSnoot 2mo ago • 100%
I'm Asian and I'm very hesitant to include myself as a "brown" person even though some people do. In terms of suffering from colorism, I feel like my skin isn't dark enough and I tend to have more privilege than other brown people. Racist stereotypes of Asians say they're all super smart and high achievers. Many other racial stereotypes say the complete opposite for other ethnicities of brown people. I feel like I'm stealing victimhood when I say I'm brown.
My anxiety about this is so great, I don't talk about this at all, not even to my closest loved ones. I don't want to step on anyone's toes about this topic of if I'm brown or not. I don't want to be excluded but I have guilt about being included.
HexaSnoot 2mo ago • 100%
HexaSnoot 2mo ago • 100%
I have other priorities higher than a completely plant based diet change. I might do it one day, for now I've just reduced my meat consumption. And I didn't say you can't criticize it.
HexaSnoot 2mo ago • 100%
Idk, but I love watching a YouTube channel called Little Chinese Everywhere. By a Chinese woman who is on her way to making videos of every single province in China. She goes into homes of locals like every episode. Asks them about life there. Sometimes multiple homes. Crazy levels of hospitality in many total strangers. I'm American and it made my bf cry because we deeply feel like these are our people. Maybe her channel will inspire your choice making. It certainly makes me want to move to China.
And are they generally far left?
HexaSnoot 2mo ago • 100%
I had trouble thinking of what to say because there are dynasties in my ethnicity's culture. With many cultural traditions centered around the dynasties and the concept of money. My parents are immigrants and my childhood was filled with cultural practices. If I were to say my culture is worth more than a chain restaurant, I'd believe it.
But the question stands: Where does the hegemonic culture begin and end? What is the answer when capitalism existed in the making of my ethnicity's culture? Where does one end, and another begins?
Wanting these ends on a bob that stops around or below my chin or collar bone. I want really spikey ends, hopefully with a straight line in the space between them. Literally like this picture. Can I simply cut it this way? Do I have to use product? Can I recreate it post-haircut by simply brushing my hair? If I can't just brush it out back into this post-haircut, and I must use product, what do I use and how?
I grew up with culture and assumed everyone else had culture. Then I came across a white person who fetishized black and Asian people. She grew up in America completely without contact with their ancestral tree for generations. I'd sit down, and they'd tell me their DNA is part Asian around 20x before I got up from my seat. She and her entire family looked completely white. That's how far back she was digging. She's not black by any stretch, but she claimed she couldn't understand white slang because she only speaks black slang... even though she grew up with my also white boyfriend in the same white suburb neighborhood. My boyfriend simply talks like a white person. She wore cultures as costumes. Like not growing up wearing durags then wearing one at 25 and dressing up in gang colors and lying about being in a gang, growing up in a ultra-rich suburban neighborhood and explaining to my boyfriend what is like to grow up in the hood(you grew up in the same ultra rich suburb shut up!), Buddhist beads(in her chosen gang color) with long "Buddhist nails" when they were cruel and dehumanizing at every chance, and nothing else about them was Buddhist. She is also immunocompromised, but started the pandemic insisting she wear a paisley bandana(also in the gang color) instead of medical masks I gave her a full pack of. She claims it's distasteful to talk about feeling animosity towards the 1%, but she loves watching videos of black gangs getting shot. They were constantly trying to look like "an exotic white person." They never realized they are just white and can only be shown around other people's cultures as a guest, but can never become "one of them." Always just as an outsider. They taught me part of what whiteness was. Because of them I know about people who are white and nothing else.
HexaSnoot 2mo ago • 100%
Ah right the very concept of an existing colonial entity. I suppose you can't make it right by letting it exist.
I wonder what First Nation people would call the land when it's all said and done. I feel like it would be defended against more strongly if they protected it as one unified power.
This is not a joke. I actually don't know.
I saw some set in ancient China which seemed pretty cool. I'd love to find it and get some subtitles going. One show had an evil character that was a woman with many lower ear piercings. Starting on her ear lobes, trailing up the edge of her ear. She seemed like a power hungry royal who'd slap and punish other women a lot. Really pretty show. Her looks and character's tendencies are why I remember it.
She responded to accusations of being a Nazi by posting [she's proud of "white culture"](https://mixmag.net/read/grimes-proud-white-culture-called-nazi-white-supremacist-news) and I'd like to quit consuming her stuff.
A Chinese communist news site full of happy news is called [Sixth Tone.](https://www.sixthtone.com/) Another is China's official newspaper, [People's Daily.](https://peoplesdaily.pdnews.cn/) I love what I've read on there, but I tend to barely read articles. And please, if you spot an podcast in English on one of these sites, let me know!
My perfectionism is disabling. I ban myself from doing anything I don't feel like I'll do perfect at. I barely do things I love and don't know my interests well. I love people and mingling, but I grew up selectively mute until highschool and to this day I have a hard time being direct. I overthink all texts. I used to type one sentence for hours and not send anything. My humor is very underdeveloped because I don't risk bombing jokes. There's so much I won't do unless someone is there encouraging me and enthusiastically approving of what I'm doing. I have severely low self esteem because of my level of perfectionism. I just want to hang out and chill with people and have interests that I act on. Btw, what do you do when you need to do something you love, fast?
Like in a dehumanizing manner. I want to go by it/they/them but I'm scared I won't be able to handle it if someone does that.
Tips to make friends without spending money are welcome. I've spent years in a city without making friends. Luckily even though I'm a minority in America, I'm not a minority in my city. :) It's filled with people of my ethnicity. So I have more opportunities to be closer with my people, and I want do the right things to get there. Btw they don't have to be my ethnicity. Just wanna make friends to begin with. My dream is to meet cool communists around here. It's a minority city, and I figure I can't be the only one.
I'm curious how that could work. That peaks my interest because I've known people who have autism and seem great at socializing. I don't have autism, but I'm very socially awkward, and if autistic people can do that I find it inspirational for my own socializing journey. A podcaster on [Radio Free Totebag](https://radiofreetotebag.castos.com/) casually said it, and idk if it was just as a passing joke, or if they were speaking factually. They mentioned a therapist not liking that they still say they're autistic when it's an old diagnosis.
I'm more exposed to American conservatism. And even here I barely understand it. I used to be Christian, but I left the religion before I realized I was bi, and before I knew genderfluidity and trans people existed. I guess I'd have to know why individual religious groups, countries, cities,(etc...) have anti-LGBTQ beliefs. Maybe there are no blanket statements that properly address it for the entire world.
TW: suicide Don't want to hurt abusers, but I do want to *be able* to hurt them and choose not to. I think it'd help me if I gained the ability to imagine physical vengeance. I want this to end in forgiveness. It's long been unsustainable for me to be a martyr. I waste my life away in maladaptive daydreaming where I imagine helping my past abusers. I've attempted suicide over the grief of past events, which gave me CPTSD and OCD. I've had multiple physical abusers, and can barely imagine hurting them. I need to build the ability to imagine attacking. I think if I can imagine hurting my attackers and physically punishing them, including just for my own vindictive fun, then maybe I can gain the ability to actually forgive them. Currently, I imagine giving them what they want, and then magically figuring out a compromise with them where they change their minds and stop being an abuser. (Like dating someone who sees me as a piece of meat, and using the relationship to change their mind so they're not a shithead anymore.) I think that's not actual forgiveness, it's just bending to their will. I cycle through these maladaptive daydreams of self-sacrificing for the benefit of the inhumane, and waste my life in suicidal grief. I'm skipping something crucial... ...I realize cannot truly forgive without making a choice to not hurt them. I think I need to first imagine brutal vengeance. Not to act it out, but as a step to expressing myself differently before I attempt forgiveness. __________ A friend has also been trying to train me in MMA, but I won't hit for real. I won't spar with them even though I know its good for me. I just imagine stopping danger through compromises that don't actually exist. One session I hit a bag for real. I was down to punch after someone had attempted to assault me days earlier. Being vindictive seriously helps, and imagining torturing and annihilating the predator was a huge help. *___*
Obviously there's the dialectics where it can be the opposite. I need to view it as more of a loving world right now.